Love Comes Into Our Lives in Many Different Ways

Love comes into our lives in many different ways.  Twenty two years ago love came into my life wrapped in a 5lb 11oz bundle of bright eyed wonder.  Born under water, this little being didn't seem to be in any anguish or distress, but instead seemed amazed that this new world of light was still so wet and warm.  Like a small creature coming out of the primordial sea, the mid wife placed this Aquarian born child in my arms and it was love at first sight on my part.  I had spent nine months preparing for her arrival, and yet, once she was in my arms it was life by the seat of my pants for awhile.  Nothing has ever been the same, and I wouldn't have it any other way.  Someone said to me once, "a child passes through your life and disappears into adulthood."  It is so true, and yet in that act of passing through my life there is a sparkling trail of memories that light up my heart, like diamonds of sunlight dancing on the wake of a boat.  To have had the opportunity to have loved so deeply, so purely, and so totally was truly a blessing.  At twenty two, she is beautiful, as she stands on the threshold of her adult life.  There is promise and optimism, there is life and enthusiasm, and most importantly there is love and laughter.  I am eternally grateful for this gift that has taken twenty two years to fully unwrap.  I love her for having blessed my life so completely, but I love her more for what she is becoming.  Celebrating Mother's Day helps me to stop, and pause, and reflect on the blessings that motherhood has brought to my life.

On The Path to Enlightenment

I had a tough week last week. There were a couple of things that came together that made me look, really look at my life and my choices and my WHY. I found it necessary to spend the weekend revisiting what I know to be my core purpose for being and to reconnect in order to move past the events of last week.

Last week brought tremendous disappointment in the company that I work for. I am seriously beginning to doubt that this company is the vehicle that will allow me to fully realize my WHY. We have a leadership that seems unable to stop lapsing into modes of communication and politicking that have no place in a truly people centric culture. Having leadership that BELIEVES in our WHY is an absolute requirement for us ever to have a chance of getting there. I just didn't see it this last week. Don't get me wrong - there are those leaders who live the vision, just not enough of them, and not enough at the top. It becomes really obvious when the going gets tough.

I really need to take into consideration how much time I realistically have left and how that has the potential of playing out given the current state. If I were to dream the dream, I need a vehicle that is solidly anchored to its WHY. I need people around me who are all rowing in the same direction with conviction, with enthusiasm and with a FAITH in the WHY that is unfaltering and unwavering. How we treat the least of us is a key to how people centric we truly are.

This weekend I spent with my daughter celebrating Mother's Day. Being a Mom has been an amazing adventure. My daughter has given me 20 years of growing and stretching and testing and change. She is my most valued teacher and my most beloved creation. "A child is someone who passes through your life and disappears into adulthood." My daughter is at that threshold. It is important to me, until I take my dying breath, that I model what it means to live life fully; to push the envelope, to challenge myself; and to be fearless in the pursuit of my WHY, not just for her, for for all of those in my circle of influence. I may not have a lot of time left, but what I have needs to count.